This is Goodbye

Since my first entry in early July 2004, blogging has been a big part of my life, through the good and bad and contemplative and angry. I tried to be careful about the identities of the people I wrote about and it generated mixed reviews. I tried to be civil but still ended up being vulgar for quite a few bits.

To be honest, blogging can be rather narcissistic for there would be a sense of pride when the stats counter jumped. And despite the once in a blue moon misunderstandings, I did enjoy writing for myself, friends and family in the past 4.5 years.

However, I’m at a different place now – spiritually (not in the religious sense), mentally and emotionally. And blogging cease to exist there. I’m a little tired of the self-censorships on the entries. I’m also fail to see the need of trying to stake a claim in the world by throwing my thoughts into cyberspace. Most importantly, I’ve learnt the merits of introspectiveness and the power of undisclosed information.

I’ll continue to write about things that happen to me, my thoughts and feelings. In fact, I have always written and accumulated diaries since I was 7. And I’ll continue to write to/for those I love.

Maybe I’d blog again, someday. But it wont be here, nor anytime soon.

Esto es adiós – farewell.

2009

The funTies started with zhichar at Chinatown, walked to Macs at Liang Court, settled at Brewerkz for the good part of the evening, and ended with Bak Kut Teh near UE.

Ushering the new year with the people who you grew up with is the best way to do it. Plus one unexpected phone call and a couple of messages from those you thought forgot. Comfort, bonds and testimony to friendships enduring the tides of time.

And since the NRs were packed and I refused to call for cabs which were happily exploiting the situation, I made a 5.2km trek home in 2.5in heels at 3am in the morning.

The journey gave me time to reflect on 2008. And made me remember the qualities I strive towards; and that we can do anything we set our hearts to.

New year celebrations continue today till the weekends!

“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.” ~ Neil Gaiman

Value is subjective

I’d very much like to rave about internships but I’m often not sufficiently blessed. HOWEVER, I’m not quite going to complain.

For one, income is required after the ostentatious december. Plus I may one day need to recite the different cities in UK to save my life. Being part of a big organization is eye-opening. Being part of the Shenton Way crowd is a push in the direction of unhealthy weight loss. Being an intern means I can escape grown-up responsibilities for at least one more month.

Nevertheless, my work email is available to those who want to entertain me once in a while. (For those unaware, banks block half of the world wide web.)

On a separate note, old friends are the best people to remind you what’s really important

Merry Christmas

What is Christmas? It is tenderness for the past, courage for the present, hope for the future. It is a fervent wish that every cup may overflow with blessings rich and eternal, and that every path may lead to peace. — Agnes M. Pharo

“Christmas gift suggestions:

To your enemy, forgiveness.

To an opponent, tolerance.

To every child, a good example.

To a friend/family, your heart.

To yourself, respect.”

Dangers of holidaying with guys

Putting on 2kg of weight in 8days. Since eating 4 meals a day seemed absolutely necessary. 

BOO

Where we became instant millionaires

It was so much more than the sum of its parts. At various points, I was triggered to reflect upon how fortunate I am. And pictures and words can only do so much to illustrate the memories captured in those moments but already lost in time.

The boys are beyond wonderful (yes, even when morning call was at 7-ish each day). So everything from water (!!!) to crossing roads (a challenge through and through), from itinerary to cam-whoring, from food searches to entertainment, had been taken care of.  All I had to do was to make sure that the VND were not stolen. Being a millionaire was more difficult than expected.

Often times, a change of scenery and the company of good people are required to remind me of dreaming with no barriers, believing that nothing is impossible and I already have all that I need.

Your Heart Will Lead You Home

“But somehow right before your eyes 
the sun fades away 
everything is different 
and everything has change 

If you feel lost and on your own 
and far from home you never alone you know”

Son las dos y media de la mañana

Los examenes hacen a gente loco: El ejemplo perfecto.

Mis amigos SMU son muy fantástico!

Dream team

Maybe I am feeling super nostalgic with this being my very last project as an undergraduate. With the boys, working through weeks 14 and 15 don’t seem like a bad or crazy idea. With them, I am having too much fun to notice how time-consuming field work is.

I hope I don’t drive them mad before Vietnam. Like by cussing too much (SORRY mosey!)

I love my dream team.

Q

So I’m kinda done with my university education. 
And watching it on broadway is my next target!