cheap thrill

blogging amongst the tourists. i have decided to run away from the office for a little while so that people can stop asking me to do stuff. hahas.. legally (during break) of course.

so i am now happily plugged into iTunes and doing my own stuff. and this little escape makes me happy more than it should. not complaining though.

trying to get myself killed with the lack of rest. met up with a whole load of people last week, both planned and incidentally. love it but 5 or less hours of sleep per day is not helping my skin or health.

still, i’m mahjong-ing tonight and have to complete a video tomorrow. in between, i have to write up the first draft of a training manual and clear up my room. did i say that i’m now on holidays? supposedly?

thanks with hugs

i can go on and on about last night. actually i can go on and on about my various meetings with the saints throughout the week. to the 5 guys and 7 girls who may read
this, you all are fucking amazing.

because of the wonderfully late but still wonderful brithday presents, i have decided to rename my blog in honour of the cinderellas who put in so much efforts such as this:

杰克玲上，

三月二十八日这一天
就是你生日的那一天
关爱快乐一直在身边
我们大家虽无法见面
但心中还是不停挂念
今天终于约了见个面
让祝福在你面前出现
祝你开心的度过这年
事事都顺利勇往直前
外加白马王子的出现
我现在脑海没字呈现
但要写到二十一条线
所以就加废话一点点
希望你不会读到很”xian”
认识你大概已有五年
你始终没有什么改变
我们的友谊也没有变
一直把它放在心里面
最后祝你一路赚大钱
哎哟糟糕真的没话写
生日快乐请将就一点

piles and piles and piles and piles and piles and piles and piles of paperwork

they should just call it paper resource. i think i killed a small tree today. this is why i never liked office work.

i guess i shouldnt be complaining cos i do get to see the actual aspect of this major. plus i am the special projects intern who will eventually get to do other non-HR aspects. still, there is only that much photocopying, emailing, drafting, chasing people for forms, calling people up because of forms, asking every other person “WHERE are your FREAKING FORMS??”, cursing at the damn bloody slow computer, sorting out papers, tranferring written info to soft copy THEN printing them out in hard copies that a sane human being ought to do in a day.

and they should stop introduce me as the “(name of school) intern” already. i am not ashamed of my school but i can do without the misguided perceptions. i never quite get why people think that just because you are from a higher institution, you are of a different breed. i have met some of the stupidest people who are credentially supposed to be damn smart and vice versa.

i want to pretend to be on the moral high ground and say that networking is evil; strings shouldnt be pulled. but we know that that is all bullshit. you build rapport and get ahead fucking quickly because of connections. eventually, you will still have to have the substance to stay on. but you are already so much further in the room than the average person.

dont fuck with me

wanted to blog about my first day as an intern. and the damn fun meet up session i had with the funTy guys.

but i just had to open up my email to discover the amount of shit admin crap i am thrown with. when i am not the fucking in charge. i have no problems with doing more than i should but if i am constrained by damn pointless boundaries, people who came up with the ridiculous system should just go screw themselves.

do not ever fuck with me and expect me to take it lying down. the world should have learnt that.

shoutout

to anyone who bothers, i’m adding an extra page – pearls – about one of my fav things called quotes. do drop a comment if chanced upon anything interesting so i can add to the collection.

thanks in advance!

oxymoronic: hating love

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

- Neil Gaiman

two years and counting

never predeciding where to eat. even after a million phone calls and texts. the ones in jeans and the others in dresses. laughter and noise as if we owned the place. varying fussiness about food that totally confused the wait staff. gushing about musuems. absolutely bimbotic comments and statements (morocco and monaco, different right? which is in middle east?)

first hand account of watch fair and chocolates brought back from switzerland! bitching and whining about internships that span across three cities and six companies. dreaming about trips to hongkong, qingdao, bangkok, redang, bali, tioman (and hopefully making it to some of them). frivolous wants and suspension of disbeliefs.

talking, smiling, joking without any concern of time. and of course the traditions of the awfully chocolate cake, walking to nowhere in particular and spoiling our livers with booze.

in limited pensive moments, i pictured us ten years down. we’d have the investment bankers, financial hotshots and at least one CEO. even if we are in the same field, there are less chances for us to sit around and laugh with/at each other. and then i’d always remember this period of my life, when grownup responsibilities havent quite sank in and we did just that.

eye candies

no order of preference. this is so frivolous!

David James Elliott – Harmon Rabb (JAG)
Eddie Carhill – Donald Flack (CSI: NY)
George Clooney
Jamie Bamber – Lee “Apollo” Adama (Battlestar Galactica)
Josh Duhamel – Danny McCoy (Las Vegas)
Julian McMahon – Christian Troy (Nip/Tuck)

i just have a thing for dark haired, dark eyed, brooding men.
but where’s one in real life?

out of the blue

irritating are days where you wake up in the morning, thinking that it is just another day and your body decides to totally fuck up on you. what’s all the more fantastic is that you have an appointment to discuss the details of your internship in three hours.

i puked more green liquid than i would think humanly possible 20mins before the appt. however, the body decided to hold up for the 5 hours i sat through discussion and i managed to smile and not hurl the food and drinks i was offered. it managed to keep up for the whole journey back to smoo and it was only upon reaching home that i threw up all of lunch.

so technically, for the past 18 hours, the stomach has zero content.

as for internship, travelling is going to be the hugest bitch ever. but it’s going to be damn exciting larhs. no life to speak of, with time spent at the ulu-est part of the island but i will get to do relevant stuff for both majors!

got the first grade of the past semester. yet another below average score for my below average career in smoo. what is new?

mass mess clearing

physical mess – books, bags, clothes, papers, presents thrown around practically every room in the house.
emotional mess – of which if i’m able to put it down in writing, it wont be a mess.

considering i am selling my soul to yet another institution soon, i am required to figure out the particular day to set aside soon.

happier stuff: mahjong-ing with the MR guys was fun! even though i was the biggest loser and couldnt follow what went on half the time. note to self – make it a point to be the youngest girl in all guys group every single semester. hahahs.